Its been a habit of mine from the last few months to pray each night for a miracle..I know it sounds silly but I have tried everything else..only to be reaffirmed that no one gives a crap..So if there is indeed such a thing as divine intervention I am in desperate need of it right now..So I started on my journey of spiritual discovery..I am almost sure that no help is coming from upstairs..may be that tiny bit of help too is reserved for the people who have their hands full with the good gifts already bestowed upon them..Still each night as I close my eyes I murmur insisting upon that one miracle that may set my life right.,more out of apprehension than out of hope..as I cannot allow the situation when for the first time God was paying attention and I was too busy sleeping..I cannot afford to do that..

Almost feel like an anomaly in God's great plan for the universe..otherwise how do you explain people not appreciating what I have done for them..how do you explain people not missing me or even giving a damn when I am not around....
Its just lurking from one darkness to another with no sight of that mythical light at the end of a very dark tunnel...